Praying Away

Coming togther and asking for help had solved our first two tests but the third was for me alone, it was not a practical problem that could be solved it was inside me, resentment, anger, self-loathing, blame. I had harboured these sort of feelings before, they manifested and turned inwards creating depression.

But this time I had the tools to deal with these feelings, I prayhed for D and myself, I prayed for forgivness for my wrongs and those who had wronged against us, I prayed for my heart to be filled with His love, strength and forgiveness. Slowly they faded, the more trivial first and then the more hurtful, but most importantly with His help these feelings did not turn into depression as they had before.

When I first started this journey it was sparked in part by D remarking that I struggled to deal with things because I had no faith, I now knew he meant. I have the faith to turn anger into forgiveness, resentment into understandings and weakness into strength.